I love to see these two lovely aunty and uncle of mine. they are happily married for more than 20years. and then again look how happy they are..ehehe..love this picture very much

everybody has been wishing raya wishes here and there…and i think im the only person on net who doesn’t really fully use the advantage of this virtual world of the net to do the wishing process. guess i’m too lazy with the cliche acts. but the truth is my laptop is emerging with virus that i need to reformat and kick asses with the remedies.vokeh..pictures..yes i’m way looking forward to upload the pictures here. is just a matter of time. bare with it.

i read one of my regular visit blogger who then used to be my fav. aahhh….eeee..ooo…oooaaaa….that would be my nossier expression. well she’s been so lucky i would say. being able to travel everywhere. and do tell me why am i freakingly jealous? you tell me, ya ha! and whilst i myself here just couldnt even get the taste to move even around msia. how do you beat that? well im not pulling for sympathy here.is just that i feel so darn frustrated. what add more to the sugar and spice is that the kind of life that i have been dreaming since young has been reality revised by this blogger. goodness me…it’s darn scarry mind u. to have it seen really happening, and worst,the dream is now not anymore yours but it is eventually has become other reality living life. sad it is..

well i keep saying and phrasing on and on to my bf. he who has never give up on me and never fail being my good listener, keeps telling me that i myself too would achieve my dream. is just a matter of time. he told me so to try to focus on one thing at a time. then once achieved i’ll sure be able to see it. i hope he’s right. aww..i do want to believe that very much *praying hard*. i guess i’ll have to start pulling up my socks and plan day and night my targets. and shoot it at the right time.

ir's in a way i sometime react when i'm with him

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i don’t know what is your actual feelings. i think you must have a mix of feelings, thinking you’ll be left all alone here whilst your someone will be gone to somewhere. if you had spoken love months back when the day i flatter my feelings for you, maybe i would have taken you in and behold your love. but ever since past months has far gone by…so does my unleash feelings, i don’t think im capable to develope such feelings no more.it has already spoken to lose you out. never the less i stil think your love is nothing more but lust, still i thank u for having that little feelings for me. it does do me a sheer bliss.

i now can be nothing more but loyal to my one and only love life. im very much positive that you can get through this. you have her who love you more. im just another escape in your living picture. you are one man who has everything, a good pakage. you have the look, sweet and tender lips that can melt and arouse any woman you spend your life with, you have the brain…everything. im sure you would find your one of a kind lady, your ideal girl whom would spend the rest of her life with you

circa 8:54pm

Ola…ehehehe…I’m all at home..filling up the emptiness that I have long miss. i miss home like nobodies business. it has already been 3 days. it’s way too joy-able for me to be home with complete family tree. it’s way rare to have all 5 of us at home. feels like the old days. i haven’t been out for 3straight days. just want to have the aura of home environment. what else can i ask for, home cook food *ahhh thats my prior fav* my bed that i had left for quite a long time, my parents, my gandma whom i miss the most. and also my aunt who is so good at cooking ‘kam-chai ak’ * if i am to translate it,it is actually duck soup. hmm yummmeeehhh!!!.

okay i have nothing much for rotten words here today. i’m practically indulging every seconds at home.

still i wouldn’t want to miss my post wishing every Muslims around the globe a Happy Blessing Ramadhan. may all of us would do a good deal on this Holy month of Ramadhan. Enjoy…

I’m a little greedy here. so i just have to show these two beautiful pictures that i had taken from one of the source through internet…

circa 12:33pm

its lunchy time..but apparently I’m fasting for the month of Sya’aban (Muslim’s calender). I’m neither pious nevertheless too lose when it comes to religion matter. I’m just doing something that may help me at least through my sins, to get more ‘pahala’ from Allah S.W.T. While i was doing my work, within the splits of times when I’m a little fed-up with my work load, i get my self connected to the virtual world, which is my only way out to a different world. i was surfing this webpage called Miracles Pictures. i got so amazed and overwhelmed by looking at each and every pieces of the pictures. it actually tells who is our creator, our Almighty Allah S.W.T. I’ll be picking up a few pictures to share in here and the rest of it, you guys can take a tour on your own. a few of my favourites would be:

1) Amazing Marks on Your Hands

2)

Indonesian Mosques Stand through Earthquake and Tsunami

Date: December 26, 2004 Place: Indonesia

Picture 1

Source: AP Photo/Dudi Anung (Yahoo News)

Picture 2

AFP/Choo Youn-Kong

Picture 3

AP Photo.Andy Eames

Picture 4

AP Photo/Eugene Hoshiko

Picture 5

REUTERS/Kim Kyung-Hoon

3) Allah’s Name Written by the Bees

4) A Rock in Sajdah Position

there are other varieties of picture that i think I’m able to share with my other Muslim and Muslimah at here.its very intriguing looking at all of the pictures. this contemporary living earth is not only just a temporary still it is up to us to dig and gain what does this mother earth have for us. the more we dig the more we gain the nearer we are to Allah S.W.T. reason being is because the more we dig the more we are capable to come to 1 answer, which is Allah S.W.T as the creator of the whole entire universe.

being myself, i did as well search for other religion’s miracles, I’m not surprise to not to find any of it compare way far from what we have. segala kejadian Allah S.W.T ada sebabnya. untuk kita kembali dan berfikir segala creation Yang Maha Berkuasa hanya akan tunduk dan sujud pada yang Esa yakni Allah S.W.T. its amazing isn’t it.

circa 6:57pm

the rain is raining very heavily. of all the day today i drove to work today. and the well known smart tunnel here at Jalan Tun Razak is obviously closed due the wet day. well here i am stuck in the office waiting till maghrib maybe after solat i’ll make my move. anyhow, read through the famous Permatang Pauh election feedback from all over the resources. Goverment and Opposition. no kudos to PKR from me. nay boo-ey to BN. too many stuff going on. the rakyat are bitterly scared with all the political issues. realistically the Malaysian political is now way not stable. most of them are now transparency playing dirty politic. bribing… people can be traded by money. yes they take away the money but they still vote for their best favourite candidate.

like what I’ve written yesterday, the low mentality Muslims are now very much daring to sell off their own religion just for the sake of money. each one of them want to show off as though they are the ones with highly educated in Islam yet they never realised they are worst. the whole of Malaysia is now making fun of the religion, yet to them money can buy their prosperous to heaven. PKR won, why?some say they don’t have the trust anymore in BN. but can PKR also be trusted. from what i see all of them be it for PKR or BN they are both born with splited tongue (lidah bercabang). i agree to some opinions commented from Tun’s blog by a few Tun’s blog readers, that non can now be trusted neither can be seen to be a decent PM.

i still want to quote what Tun said from his blog “Untuk pulihkan sokongan kepada UMNO dan Barisan Nasional, Dato Seri Abdullah perlu bertanggungjawab dan letak jawatan sekarang. Ini akan memberi masa empat tahun bagi pemimpin-pemimpin UMNO berusaha untuk menarik balik penyokong UMNO dan Barisan Nasional. Jika ditunggu hingga Jun 2010 masa yang tinggal untuk pemulihan hanyalah 2 tahun; terlalu pendek untuk kerja yang berat ini” . by means he has an absolute and concrete reason. i couldn’t have agreed more with this statement. has anybody ever give it such a thought?

well reason being I’m so political geek recently it’s because I’m so afraid thinking whats going to happen to Malaysia. believe me or not, eventually i don’t have the feeling at all neither looking forward for this year’s Merdeka celebration. reason being is because with all this politics issues. then while i was driving to work, i saw this semi circle made by a few choppers with each of one it has flag from different states tied to it, rehearsing for the Merdeka. i felt a sudden rush of sadness through me, sad because we are not even close to a decade of independence and yet all i can see is now, malaysia is cracking, and waiting for a gigantic wave to swipe and break it into pieces and everything will drown and die. i don’t want that to happen. we have no where else to go. this is our home, our land-blood. but they who are responsible are not looking nor fighting what is right for the people and country. they are one big hell of greedy people, who thinks a fat lot of themselves. we are not even democratic country anymore. we are to veto power which up right to republic country. Ministries don’t serve the people, people serve the ministries.

I’m off for solat till I’ll be in my mood to talk of something more casual rather than this bunch of headache issues.

circa 8:34am

good morning…yeah i have posted my yesterday’s post last night. poor me had to draft it in my gmail and paste it to my wordpress.com. anyhow…yesterday was my bizarre worst hair day ever. have you ever been through a bad hair day?i hardly have that bad hair day, and yesterday as the worst ever. i just can’t help myself to ’structure’ my own hair. i was so not in the mood. i was blabbering bout my bad hair day to my boyfriend, then next to my best friend then back again to my boyfriend. can really imagine my nightmare yesterday. it’s due to its lenght which erupts up to my neck lenght and it is so obviously growing long. i really regretted for cutting my hair short when i was back then working as the trainee manager in McDonald. having a bad hair day has really make me feel so uncomfortable and less confident. and that bothers me much. the best part i managed to shut my misery and totally play ignorant with the surroundings. why….? its due to bad hair-day-out! buwelkkh!!

when i was hitching LRT back to PJ, there was this one young pretty lady in the train who obviously make do a lot of attraction by the other passengers. she’s the air-stewardess i assume. she was wearing her stewardess attire obviously, and with her pilot guy heading to Kelana Jaya route. her beauty bloom had really attracted especially from the eyes of different gender. her hair was neatly mould up. and her flawless make-up made herself looking very elegant, like there’s no such thing as touch-up act. which brings to meaning she is not ever expose to any kind of sunlight that can wash off the make-up arts on her flawless skin. that beauty itself, is good enough to make a person to walk confident, feel confident and be confident. and that was what i lose out yesterday.

lets hope my yesterday’s misery won’t hop in today. till i get my hair cut I’m praying my hair would at least have a little mercy on me. maybe i have to pet my hair more then maybe she won’t give me the trouble like i had yesterday aye.

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Rubbish!

I’ve just read the news from thestaronline.com. these political issue is really getting out of hand. one say and do something another will oppose something else. well that is the way it is for politics. but what the hell are they trying to do and play up with here when it comes to religion. why are they making a fool of their own religion? why are they making fun of their own religion. I’m a Muslim and I’m very much terrified with anger after reading from one side and another. one side conform swearing on QURAN and another said that the oath is not valid. swearing with Holy Quran and making it as a fake? aren’t they ashamed of making others to see how shallow and narrow your religion knowledge is? what is Islam to you now? money?religion can be trade with money?how low can a person be?let it be for the high position peeps neither be the so called themselves imam. what is happening to the people now?they think they can attract the rakyat by trying to propose who and who are better in religion wise then to hell they and their so called strong religious people. the way these whole avenue of political issue is making as though Islam and money are at the same level of integrity. how can they put themselves into such dirty level? rakyat are not stupid. why can’t they just let there and then and leave the oath behind and concentrate more on other important scenario. the swearing is between the person and Allah SWT. non of us can clarify whether the swearing is valid or non valid. who are you to clarify the validity of the swearing? now you have come to make do that religion and money are nothing but just a living life in the world, and now you are playing God yourself? too much…this is way too much.

stupid firewall…don’t mind for not wanting others to chat but not to let others be able to register in what so ever significant reasons to pass through username is also being cut off..fuck it. hey this is my first word up, and im all fill up with anger.i should be more competent with this.well i dont know how long will this blog will refine with me, i had a few before and there and then i feel like i don’t need to blog anymore.then for some other reason now im starting a new 1 how fickle minded a person can be. i just want to find some excitement in me.i feel so down and lost, and full of sadness. instead of feeling happy since within just a few days ahead im goin back to my hometown. i can’t assure whats bothering my head and feelings. it’s as though fluctuating with solemnise.i need a life..i truly need a life of my own.for instance to be able to have a home of my own where im able to do things that i want. i want to have a place of my own. a place where i can feel secure and be filled with love arounds me. i just can’t bare within my whole entire sadness feelings.there are so many things that i want for my life.but why can’t i have it?these questions will keep arising till the day i get the life of my life. i love to travel, i love shopping, i love having my love of life living with me, i love shooting pictures.i have always imagine the kind of living that i want for my life to be. will i ever be able to concede the such living?how can anywbody help me out?i guess not aye?only me and myself that be able to converse such life.i will someday. i will do the best of my life.this little things of such phenominal can really drag the feeling out of the reality world.

circa 1:06pm

i have another story of life to share. i love arts.very much indeed.one used to ask me to take up photography and become a photgrapher and have it for my carrier. but i told him back too that such occupation can’t make a living life. for a second now, im thinking if i ever take up the challenge, just stream away with what this friend of mine had said what would ive become?would i be enjoying my life at least, a little less solemnise on my feelings of side. i can barely imagine now, im able to travel, and capture all the wonderufl moments of my life time around the world.i can assure you that i’ll be the most happiest girl on earth. and incline to that i’m able to sell my drawings and show the world of what i have and be able to share my experience and captured. ahhh…i’m feeling the bliss of that moment of my dreamy landing dreamland. wonderful aye?well those are partly the things that i feel i’m not able to reach my hands out for it yet. when there are so many kinds of desire, which practically making it hard for me to plan out which and which should come first. hmm…a second ago im talking of planning that disrupt my dream, on second thoughts now, im thinking of displaying what are my wish lists.would that be so typical or has been so cliche?typical would be my pick.well nevertheless people would be saying it is cliche, hell with it…ehehehe…let me have the list when i’m in the mood to list them in…ahahaha..the mood that scare me a little. lets hope that then mood is still on not till i wash my hands off the blog okay…